New Year Revisited

The following is the entire body of my post labelled New Year. I decided to go back and comment on individual parts and how appropriate it might be now. The original is in normal text, the comments will be in italics (I always thought that was spelled with two L's, but apparently not..)

As the sun sets on today, I thought about this:
What does this year have in store for me? (Not a lot so far, lol!)

Well, for a start, there's a few personal things I want to change:
I want to care less about other people's opinions of me. (This has happened, ever so slightly.)
I want to be able to be myself. (Not really happened.. maybe a little bit.)
I want to be happy with who I am. (Getting there with this one. )
I want to tell the truth, no matter how much it hurts me or others. (This has been a lot harder than I thought it would be, so far I've failed pretty majorly on this.)
I want to enjoy my life - live every day as my last. (Not always been doing this, but certainly more than before.)
I want to love... and be loved. (Looking back at this, it's not really important to me at the moment.)
I want to know... and be known. (I'm not too sure exactly what I meant by this... perhaps I'll work it out one day.)

Basically, I want to be happy. (Again, I'm getting there with this. Certainly a lot happier now than I was back then.)

And to be honest, if that means losing my friends or whatever, then so be it. I'd rather be happy with no friends than to pretend to be happy with a load of fake friends. (I do still feel like this. It's a pretty good one if you ask me.)

Let it be known that if I communicate with you in the slightest in 2009, it's because I want to. Not because, as is the case now, I feel obligated. (This has been a major fail. I find it hard to ignore people. But having looked back on it now, I guess I was right there. So I'll start it from now.. if I can.)

Just thought I'd let you know. (Ditto with the update! Lol.)